Been awhile………… or has it?
One may ask why I’m held up in a place where I know the people hate me, and why I have created such an easy way for them to role me by pausing me, then giving me internet, then making me do meaningless shit only to have it all rewound. The answer is simple, if it’s not this, it’s something else. I just wish I could learn how long the trips last and how many trips within trips, within trips and so on that there are. Well I see 9/11 is approaching and my sister will be in the air (or will she)? Now if they don’t use this to come into my room screaming bloody murder that my sister died I will be flabbergasted. Hell, if they didn’t use me driving to Dag-Mart to post this to get me in a head- on or two or play me like a video game I’d be flabbergasted. Hell, if they brought me a meat burrito instead of a bean one because it’s harder to disguise my meat in beans I’d be flabbergasted. My god I wonder how many times people have died in my life. Pretty much anything I can conceive that could happen to me has happened. Or one of the few chicks I could get my half a peen in calling me and telling me they had AIDS. THIS IS WHAT THIS BITCH DOES TO ME WHEN I’m GRACIOUS ENOUGH TO SHIP HER THE BLUEPRINT TO SUCCESS??? I guess you get hella bored when you don’t have the desire to create and settle on being a jealous copy cat. Back to the dieing thing………. I remember how people would always stare at me at the funerals I remember attending and comment to others in my presence “SBP didn’t even cry.” Well…. Perhaps…. Maybe because I’ve never understood the concept of death and unlike most things that have gotten clearer in my awakening period, the concept of death has become a bigger mystery. I still remember my “mom” freaking out when two kids I knew died like she was putting on a show for me……….. OH SNAP! She was putting on a show. She screamed louder than when she would call her friends and have them come tie me up while she was being “raped” BITCH YOU CAN”T RAPE THE WILLING!!!!!!!! I never understood why she went off the handle when she was so much older and more life experience when someone died. FAR FAR FAR AWAY from the comforting motherly type that I desired. She’s just like the cops, scream loud and try to rattle the person while knowing deep down that they ain’t shit compared to me.
One might ask why I feel the need to write a post at this point when it couldn’t become much clearer that my thoughts aren’t only read but some thoughts are made for me. Sometimes I forget I’m so big time and think this must be a dream when I think about how they had people start to formulate what role they would play and what they would act like 10 years before even meeting me. Hell it seems that people I haven’t talked to or heard about for something like 10 years are still in character. I like the game of always having someone around me that is notorious for their lying to help conceal the gigantic lie. That is strong. Also how you made a read on me early that if someone acted like a d bag and told me I couldn’t do this, or HAD to do that that I would always revolt(although over the last 10 years I think I’ve gotten way better at trying to analyze a situation and formulate my own opinion no matter who or what was being put in my ear) For Christ’s sake Berg probably isn’t anything like that. He’s just super deep in character like Eminem. They had him start to be a d bag in like 3rd grade just to make my giganto heart not care if I fucked “his girl” TOTAL ACTORS. He probably isn’t even that big of a douche to girls. Sick how I probably burned like crazy when my dick and heart square off when he “caught” us I wonder how many times they re created my first hookup with her. They probably ran that one for like 5 years. So gross to have to be one of the girls forced to touch this version of me. He was certainly the king of the telling me what I can and can’t do to make damn sure I did just that game….. But imho I woulda done a lot of the same things anyway…. I can just picture them telling him. “Ok he’s a full blown pot head now, you can start smoking weed now.” Or, “Well you might as well stop treating girls like dirt around him, and acting like a jealous douche at all times, he’s pretty much to the point of insecurity where he would turn down a super model offering him 10k to blow him.” I wonder how many hot chicks I ran away from. I was totally under the impression that it had gotten so bad that I was gonna be one of those dudes that needed 10 milly before he wanted to get pussy again. I stopped going to bars because I couldn’t even see the dumb sluts anymore and my eyes are super rigged and without eye contact good luck swooping. I remember these twins. They no doubt had games galore for me, even though I don’t even remember talking to them. They had a third mystery hotty too. Was she a female me? So let me get this str8.…….. I am many people but the me I look at in the mirror is the main version? I am a bunch of people but when you see them they aren’t me….. They are pieces of me? Am I on the right track? So much game there I’m impressed but when you consider the torture Berg (hell he might not be my bro he might be my sis playing the least fun role of all time) no doubt put me through with simulated suicides, homicides, bloody pussy eating, shit eating, animal fucking, food shape shifting, scaring the shit out of me, and str8 up physical torture it’s hard to be too complimentary…….. But just the fact that all these people around me weren’t stupid is very comforting in a strange way. I’m probably way too forgiving but I have no clue how I can act like a douche when everything will be going right…….. But I’m going to have to do some things, because some people certainly betrayed me more than others and in my world EVERYONE GETS WHAT THE FUCKING DESERVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN MY WORLD IF I FIND SOMEONE 27 levels removed from is working just hard enough to not get fired you best believe someone 26 levels away from me will find themselves 28 levels removed because if someone is just doing enough to get by it is ALWAYS the bosses fault…………. ALWAYS. The fact is that someone that far removed from me will treated the way I would expect to be treated if I was in his position. Hell in BITCH NIGGA LAND people one level removed from the top feel like puppets………. These people might have problems with me but you better believe that no matter what they say or do, these people HATE you.
Dumb Bitch: LOL AT YOU, they always tell me how much better I am than you!!!
SBP: Yeah, I’m sure they do, THEN THEY NUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Strange to find out that people fucking with me in grade school were ordered to do it by my “mom” so she would treat them slightly less cunty in a distant land where these poor people were in relationships with her. Really bothers me that some of these people might be versions of me. The only way I’d ever do what was done to me to a person is if I was absolute forced. You have to try oh so hard and rig so many events and have so many things and people working for you to find a jealous bone in me. You have to do even more to find a hateful bone in me. These tards live and breathe jealousy and hate. Still though if I was to do this to a person they would have the biggest house in town. Have 10 girlfriends, be treated like a god to the point where he would act like a spoiled bitch. There is no way in hell people that see eye to eye with me enjoy picking on a guy that is on his back. It’s is hilarious to me that if people think anything like the way I think you can’t help but love me…… it sucks ass that I was NO DOUBT tricked into doing nasty things to people who are truly my friends in this world as this me. MY GOD I hope they can forgive me.
No matter where I go, or what I look like in my future life I will always consider myself the person I see in the mirror today……….. God damn what an ugly fuck! LOL………………………. I wonder what I would have chosen if they came to me at 16 and gave me the option of un vanilla skying my face or pulling the other half of my dick that they sewed into my stomach out. Two answers, If they explained why both were done, I would have chosen my dick without question, if they didn’t explain why I would have chosen my face. So crazy that as I sit here today I know that nothing fucked up about the way I look or feel will do anything but help me in the future but some of these insecurities are so so deep that it’s hard to come all the way out of it. Nothing that telling a girl I love her and meaning it 100 percent can’t fix. It’s strange that when I think about that, it always feels better to be able to tell someone that and mean it then it would be to hear someone say it. Not sure why that is, possibly I still have trust issues and possibly something else. All you fags are so deep in character. Do you even feel love, or is that just a game to you as well?…………………………….... Or this is nothing more than a bad dream that I understand about as well as how time splitting works. But I mean what these haters gonna do when fourth quarter 09 becomes third quarter 99?
PATERNITY-TEST RESULTS
Chick: I know She Boon Pickens is my baby Daddy
SBP: THAT BABY DON”T EVEN LOOK LIKE ME.
Maury: She Boon Pickens you ARE the father
SBP: ?????????????????????? But that chicks white and that baby is half black?
GOD SAVE THE KING
16 Aug 2009 - 16:12
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