(Harvester)
This is sad....get some help this is beyond retarded at this point. You made some great runs and blew it, that is incredible and stupid all rolled up into one big ball. Begging is such a low life thing to do, get some self respect that you can build on. Reading this doesn't make you feel like shit, how is that not possible? These are the kind of things you are going to look back on in 12 months and feel ashamed of yourself and have that shudder down your spine only one feeling can do that...ill regret. I have had that from doing stupid shit and it will creep out of the back of your brain and make you feel stupid and you want to shake that memory but you can't it will always haunt you when you do something this stupid and embarrassing. Get a grip, make some cash pay off your debts, start out new make a new name online...and learn some BR management.